My First Therapy Session

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Time flies...  

It's the last day of October already.. 

Finally found some time to write as I was busy for the entire week with workloads and also therapy session. 

Talking about therapy ...

Never have I thought that I will need a therapist to help with my depression, anxiety and panic attack. 

I found my therapist from Instagram , her name is Yelna. She used to live in the same country as me before she get married and moved to Romania. I remembered her being my fashion idol and watching her make - up videos got me like, "I want to look this pretty toooo!" 😋

Before approaching her in DM that I need a session with her, I was going through her blog and profile. To my surprise that, what she have went through is almost the same as what I have been through. This, inspires me even more. Despite her inner struggles, she thrive and grow to become the better version of herself.

Few days before the session, I had no idea what to expect and what the experience would be like. The only image I had was those found on TV, magazines, and websites. The images on these platforms were good, but they did not portray therapy accurately. I was nervous. 

The day for my first session arrived... 

It was a Thursday night... 

In the first session, I was nervous and somewhat difficult to start the conversation ( I was holding back my tears ). But thanks to Yelna she made me feel relaxed and it led to a topic I was anticipating on (Self - introduction). I was able to speak my mind while I could see her attentively listening to me. I wasn't sure what to expect from the therapist, but pouring my heart out, and having her listen was a huge relief on my end. She was very reflective and sensed my frustration as I was speaking. My feelings towards therapy quickly changed; all the negatives prior to starting my session became positive. I felt comfortable enough to speak honestly about my feelings without feeling judged. My expectations were validated from this whole process because I was thinking what she would think of me as opposed to how will she help me .. Then I realized that she was here to guide me, and connect me to my emotions and thought in a new way. Her wholesome nature of attentively listening to me was very very soothing to me. 

For the first time, I feel relieved and finally, I have found someone who is able to help me and also able to connect with my story as our story is a little similar. 

I understand that I have to put in so much of effort in self - love , self - care as well as self - growth. Knowing what is right for my mental health is so much important than anything else. I have a lot of healing to do and without healing, I will not recover from this pain that I am battling. 

I understand healing takes time and for the sake of my mental health, I am beyond ready for this journey I am going to embark with. 

A million thanks to my therapist Yelna 💗 




 

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