Pendulum

I pick up the phone to call , 

I dial 323 ; 

And quick hang up and stare at the wall. 

Would he even talk to me ?

I write down what I wanna say, 

But then I throw the page away. 

Part of me is saying he's not even worth the pain

Part of me keeps wishing he were in my arms again. 

There's a pendulum swinging in my heart tonight 

Back and forth, keeping score 

Should I love him or leave him ? I can't decide 

Tell me which is wrong and which is right  

Was it perfect?

Is it fading ?

Is it worth it?

Is it breaking?

How much longer can I wonder if he's the one?

Or if this is done

I can't stop the pendulum

No, I can't stop this pendulum 

It's so hard to picture him

Holding someone else 

But then a voice is whispering 

I'm  better off by myself 

My friends are taking me out tonight

But could I get him off my mind 

Part of me knows why we drifted we were both to blame 

Part of me can't help but tear up when I hear his name

There's a pendulum swinging in my heart tonight 

Back and forth, keeping score

Should I love him or leave him? I can't decide

Tell me which is wrong and which is right

Was it perfect?

Is it fading?

Is it worth it?

Is it breaking?

How much longer can I wonder if he's the one?

Or if this is done

I can't stop this pendulum 

They always say when you know, you know 

I just can't figure this out on my own 

Someone please tell me which way to go 

Where do I go?

Cause I can't stop this pendulum