Story By MsBelleSugar

My mother died one year ago on the 17th November 2015. I somehow survived one full lap around the sun without my guiding light. Grief is an emotional vampire that, at times, sucked me dry of my reserve. I felt trapped in an endless, starless night...unable to see the dawn.  So, I faked it.  I smiled through the crippling pain. I laughed through the unrelenting heartache. I rejoiced through the hot tears that burned my cheeks. I didn't curl up in the fetal position to mourn my mommy because she never gave me that example during her 4 year duel with breast cancer. She wanted more for me, and I wanted more for her. Don't get me wrong -- I host pity parties for one -- but I don't overstay my welcome. Even though my mother's no longer here, she showed me the way. And I still ache for her guidance every day.  Here's 11 things I miss about my beloved mother, Agatha Ng.  1. I miss the way she answer the phone. She was the only I person I knew who would alwa...

Thank you for being there for me when I call you and need someone to just listen. It doesn't matter where we are in this world or in our lives, I know you will always pick up. Picture was taken at : Ritz Carlton Hotel  Our first Eid celebration together. Thank you for always being my supporter and for not judging me, for most of the poor decision-making skills. Thank you for all the inside jokes we have created. Picture was taken at: Cyberjaya Mosque    Thank you for being brutally honest with me when I am being ridiculous. Thank you for respecting my values or opinions, even if you disagree. Thank you for always pouring me large glasses of wine hahaha. Picture was taken at : Ritz Carlton Hotel Thank you for being brave enough to let me in and be vulnerable to me. Thank you for celebrating all of the excite moments of my life with me. I can't imagine not having you in my wedding or by my side when I hold a little human in my arms that I magically create...

Every relationship is different, but most couples have fights once in a while *just like me and it happens all the time*. Partners that stay together for the long haul usually figure out a way to make up and move on. If you don't want to pretend the fight never happened and just wait for the tension to blow over, then learn how make up in an open and healthy way.  1. LOOK BENEATH THE ARGUMENT  There's a saying: "You're never fighting for the reason you think." It may look like you're fighting about money, sex, or something else, but there's usually some feeling underneath that hasn't been fully expressed, maybe even something you hadn't realized you were feeling. Identifying the root feeling can help you calm down and make up with your partner. Common feelings that many fights can be traced include:  Inadequacy. You feel like you're not good enough and you can't quite believe that your partner would want someone like you - at least, no...

You're single even though you're a catch You'd make a good girlfriend and you know it. Your friends are always telling you that you're the best thing coming down the street, and yet these same friends always wonder why the hell you're still single - a question you've asked yourself plenty of times. While I don't have to tell you that being single is awesome - because it is - there's still always that tiny voice in the back of every woman's mind that whispers, "I'm awesome. Why can't men see that?" Well, here's the deal: It's hard to be a catch and land a man. Here's why. 1. YOU DON'T BELIEVE IN SETTLING. You know what type of people settle? The one who think they're running out of time to find something real and those who think true love isn't in the cards for them. However, that's not the case for you. You know he's out there and you're not settling for anything less.  2. YOU'RE WA...

How do you love a broken-hearted girl: Have a lot of patience. For she is lost, lost in track and in need of your guidance. She acts strong but she isn't. She is so fragile. Why? People in the past damaged her, hurt her, and it made her hard and cold. If she needs time for her self, let her. Do not think that she doesn't love you anymore. She needs time for her self too. Give love like there is no tomorrow, like every minute is the last minute. Efforts -- very important. Effort makes her feel that she is special and worthy of your time.  Forgiveness -- for she will surely make you cry. Make you scream, make you want to give up because of her attitude and mistakes; which she doesn't mean at all. Still forgive her. She doesn't know what she is doing.  Lastly, stay. Stay no matter how hard the situation is. No matter how messy things get. You will overcome it. Just stay. Don't be like those people who left her before. Stay, she needs you, she just acts like s...

There are many things I could say to you. Many of those words may not be very  nice and most of them probably wouldn't make a difference to you in any way. There are so many things I could say to you. But I'll say this: I forgive you. I forgive you for keeping me up so many late nights wondering where you were, what you were doing, who you were with because you wouldn't bother to tell me.  I forgive you for calling me names like crazy, psycho, annoying, all because I wanted you to love me, and only me.  I forgive you. I forgive you for the tear stained cheeks from the countless fights about the same things over and over again because it seemed that no matter how much it hurt me, you didn't care.  I forgive you "it won't happen again"s when it always did and the "give me another chance"s when you truly didn't deserve them.  I forgive you for humiliating me in front of friends, family, and everyone who knew the trut...