The Devastating Power of LIES In Relationship

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It's been a long while since I've updated a new post on my blog. Kinda miss writing. 

7 months ago, I was living a care-free, stress-free live until someone came and knock on my door, which is my heart. His name is , let's put it as Anonymous. I thought I would never believed in love again but God always have different ways to show his miracle and that HE is watching over you. 

He came, showed me love, including the tender, loving, care. I slowly began to believed in love again. I have never imagined that, those wishes that I used to wished for, a *cheesy* kind of relationship , which includes flowers and numerous dates, he never seems to disappoint me. It was such a beautiful and stress-free days. I was happy, from within, after a very long time. 

Till one day ....

He began to changed, never the same man I used to know. I felt like he hadn't been completely honest with me. I have always been to one to open up, be it, whether it is work related or personal issues that I have been struggling; He have always been the one that I will share it with. Him, *sarcastic laugh*, on the  other hand, never for once open up about anything at all. Well, not to said that he did not, what I meant was, he would open up 50% and keep the remaining 50% hidden. It's funny how, whenever we had an argument, he will have so much excuses to cover up the dirt. I have been through this before with my ex! I felt like history is repeating itself .

I checked his phone while he was dead asleep, what I saw right in front of my eyes, I wish that it was just a dream. I felt disgusted, I never would have thought that he would have done this to me. It hurt. What does all those flowers mean? What does all those vacation means? those promises? The best part is, I have not done nothing wrong in this relationship, I have never cheated on him behind his back nor have I done something outrageous like what he just did. 7 months of time, energy, tears were invested in him, at the end of the day, all I got in return was a sharp knife striking through my heart. I have screenshots of all his dirty deeds, I will keep that, will look at it every single day, reminder to why I must not make the same mistakes ever again. 

Every day, I am thinking of leaving him, but then I kept thinking of the things that we have been through, I give it another chance. Friends called me stupid. I ignored it and give it a second try. I guess now the picture is cleared, friends were right and my mother was right. I am stupid to be thinking this man is the one for me and that he will be with me till the end. He even told another woman that he have broke up with me and that I only love his money not him, truth is, we are still together. How ridiculous?

This is the time where I should just packed up and leave and no more turning back. Now is all clear, I doesn't just fail in love but in so many aspects. Love, will never be my cup of tea. I am indeed better off alone. 

I am no one to judge, after what he have done to me. All I know is, what goes around, comes back around. I hope KARMA served him right. 

Relationship, I am officially done with you. Please kindly stay far far away from me. 

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